{"id":1236,"date":"2026-02-05T12:44:59","date_gmt":"2026-02-05T12:44:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/?p=1236"},"modified":"2026-02-05T14:55:36","modified_gmt":"2026-02-05T14:55:36","slug":"golfbal-voor-mijn-schouder","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/golfbal-voor-mijn-schouder\/","title":{"rendered":"Golf ball in my shoulder"},"content":{"rendered":"

My steel shoulder won't let go
Doesn't reveal its secrets
it says: just be patient
especially on the left, it feels like a sturdy armor
made of armored glass
these places, hard, dull, and gray
are no longer familiar with softness
but it's my own fault
I built up all this tension myself<\/p>\n\n\n\n

20 years ago I wrote this poem, and it is still relevant. Since this past year, my left shoulder has been acting up intensely again. It's not pain, but intense tension. When I focus on it and give that shoulder free space, it naturally starts moving very expressively. As if it wants to release and reveal itself, and won't stop.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But the pressure remains; I don't know what to do with it. Look, allow, let go, listen to the message, know what shoulders stand for (I've carried too much for too long), and dance. I've had a massage where the emotion of Sadness peels away like an onion skin, and images of a black cloud of poison being sprayed up into the muscle along my shoulder blade. Focus\/intention on (and off) during breathwork (with the request: would you like to apply firm pressure here, or would you like to hold my shoulder gently?) and a recent truffle trip. Yesterday, I massaged that \"ground zero\" with a golf ball while lying on my back (after which I curled up into a ball). Oh yes, and cupping with red tiger balm. One way or the other, a hard or soft approach, for now, the tension seems here to stay.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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mijn stalen schouder laat niet losgeeft haar geheimen niet prijsze zegt: heb nog even geduldvooral op links voelt als een stevig harnasgemaakt van gepantserd glasdeze plekken hard, grauw en grijszijn met zachtheid niet meer vertrouwdmaar het is mijn eigen schuldik heb al die spanning zelf opgebouwd 20 jaar geleden schreef ik dit gedicht, en het […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1237,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1236","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1236","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1236"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1236\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1241,"href":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1236\/revisions\/1241"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1237"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1236"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1236"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/koester-coaching.nl\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1236"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}